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Let me die quickly. Let my life leave me without warning, Without hanging on for more Than maybe a few hours’ time. Don’t let there be predictions, Dates handed down from doctors To which my family will cling And look for some sort of hope. Let me leave without goodbye, Without people trying to find words And never knowing what to say; No words can be enough. Everyone thinks that if they had Just one more moment One more day One more hour With the one that they love, That somehow, some way, They would get in all the words And all the feelings And all the meaning they should have, Instead, actually said Before the moments grew so

A fire, an explosion, A madness all-consuming. Without my insanity, I am nothing. Extremes, great depth; Middle ground feels mediocre, And mediocrity is a worse fate To me than death. Brain synapses misfire, Make their own reconnections, Haphazardly holding together Seemingly unrelated ideas In a patchwork Of ink-smudged pages. I think in my senses. Tastes and smells Tied by colors and textures, Carried by music I've both heard And simple imagined into being. It is this craziness, This lens through which I view the world, That makes holding onto Human connections Feel tedious, feel exhausting, For unless someone can decipher This incess

I'm not ready to say good-bye, But if you stay on this course, You don't leave me much choice. I would just close my eyes And turn a deaf ear, but no. Someone has to be the strong one. Six years ago, I risked everything For this journey which has brought me tears, And I don't want to let you give up Because then it would seem It would all have been a waste. Is this your doing? Or is it just bad luck? I honestly can't tell The difference anymore. I want to say I love you But the words, they keep getting stuck In the back of my throat. Tomorrow morning will come for me, But it may not be there for you. I'm not ready to say g

Blue. The sky was beyond blue After days encased in greyness, And I let go. Let go, and just...flew. No logic, no gravity, No fear or common sense, Nothing but that blue sky, And you, And me, And the water and the city and... Not a single cloud. Not one. That moment, that perfect moment, That kiss, how you held me, That is what forever is made of: That brilliant blue sky, Without a cloud, without question, Or worry, or consequence, just... Blue.

There's a place in your life That she fills better than I could've dreamed She knows when to speak And leaves out all the bits that I Wouldn't have known better than to omit I wonder if she laughs anything like me And her eyes aren't quite the same shade of green I still regret nothing Even though I broke our hearts Naïveté is no excuse For the mess I made So, congratulations I wish you both the best And no, I'm not bitter Just coping the best that I can

I thought I knew what it meant to be beautifully broken. I thought I knew what it meant to be in love with the pain. But that was before; long ago, it seems. That was when I thought the best part of falling was the moment when someone would catch me. I was wrong. Let me fall. Oh, please, just let me. I want to know what it feels like to fall for what seems like forever. I want to know what it feels like to crash land into the very bottom. I want to shatter at your feet. I want you to pick up the pieces and rearrange them to your liking. I want to be yours. So let me fall. Oh, please, just let me.

I woke up feeling different today; Not empty, but not quite myself. My life was missing something Which I cannot describe. And so I tried to tell you, To explain this strange feeling I had. Though you said you had time for me, I was talking to a wall, it seemed. Your day was busier than originally planned. The conversation, it must wait. And as the hours began to pass I knew exactly what I was missing. Years ago, all you had was time. I was the center of your world. But this princess grew into a queen, And my dreams took me on a journey, One you chose to avoid. You never changed, though it feels that way. I have grown, have